Whose fault is it?

Is it my fault? Or is it their's? I don't know... maybe... it is really mine... If it isn't why am I feeling this way... This hatred for myself... I'm dying because of this undeniable agony which this phenomenon caused me. I didn't even know the exact etiology of this problem. I really don't! That's what make it worst... And my pride... damn this pride!!! I really don't know what is wrong or when will this stop... I hope... It won't last long...